There are things I'm learning every day. Especially from people and situations that annoy and bother me. Last autumn I chose learning, not getting upset. It is a very hard choice to make, although it seems to be obvious. Every choice can be hard when you're not ready, and I've never been ready, preferring to go with the flow. My moving to another country, having an unfriendly surrounding and worst humiliating job ever almost broke me, that's the sad truth. But in the end it finally made me stronger, that I couldn't achieve since school years. Only now I can be really thankful to everyone who I met in past 4 years, for making me the way I am.
It doesn't mean that I don't get upset or angry anymore, I do and a lot. But now it doesn't exhaust me or bother me for ages, I don't try to find some awful reason in myself or think what I've done to deserve this. It is just a feeling, and I appreciate it.
Now spring begins, I hear the birds singing behind my window, I love my home and my morning sunday coffee, and I finally feel self-confident enough to live the life I want.
